Saturday, May 9, 2009

I'm inlove with my same sex....

first day in school and i only have one friend which is Rica. We meet during the entrance exam, we talk and exchange our cell number.
At school an our very first day, we feel extra nervous of seeing unfamiliar faces. Gladly we are roommates in all our subject. While we are waiting in the arrival of our prof. ,we talk for a while in a vacant bench chair, a friend of her come, Mr. Reynaldo Cruz.. In that particular moment i didn't feel anything towards hem. Actually I was looking for a boyfriend that time even thought my Tita warned me not to have one while o studying she say's it only a big destruction . Because I have just break-up my recent ''bf" because Tita discarded hem "he don't deserve you" she say's while seeing me crying one night. Then I sealed a promise not to look for another.
Lately I've been wandering how to get back to school. My father abandoned us, but because of my X bf tita gave me a chance, considering the condition she made "DO NOT ENTER ANY RELATIONSHIP WHILE ON STUDY"
But O.M.G. its a rare punishment. I need inspiration. And as time goes by I know more about Mr. Rey.He excel in the class. Hes a smart one. Sometimes he use to talk to me, advising to change my personality. He say that while holding my hand. And one time he HUG me tight. And that's the time i feel different deep inside my heart.
It's a rare feeling, I know I'm not infatuated because physically hes not that macho and handsome, actually his not my dream boyfriend to be. And until now, i have this feeling with me although I'm trying to avoid hem because most of the time the promise i gave to my tita lingers in my conscience. I' am really in love with Ray, which i never felt before. Help me please.....

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