A Night with HIM

I was once lived with HIM, and once experience a life that extremely confident and peaceful. Together with my family we stay connected with HIM. Then when trials came, we did not succeed it, we failed to pass the test in our lives. From there we loss our way, and disconnected with HEM. Our family got into trouble; I turn into a monster hugging the worldly sin. There are times that I can’t seem to recognize myself anymore. Monstrous creatures became a friend of mine.
But HE has a plan; it’s HIS entire plan, because from that stuff I grow strong. HE introduces me HES friend, and HES friend leads me the right way.
Love is always the nature of my soul. Through love I meet HIS friend, I n school. At first I have no intention to love my classmate, HIS friend, but one day I surprisingly feel it with him. It is wrong to love your same sex, that’s why I choose to stay away from him,, but no use, a waste of time, because the more I disconnect myself, with him the more we cross our way in any school activity, sometimes were partner sometimes were group mates. Maybe its part of HIS plan, because of my forbidden love to HIS friend, I found my way back to HIM again.
One day at school, my classmate discuss a part of the book, which I borrowed from him. The time that we interact with each other I’m enlightened. HE put a light to my darkened life. He say’s everything is not an accident, its all HIS plan. From all of the bad things I’ve done, I feel ashamed to talk to HIM again, even though sometimes I did, it still insufficient. But the night after HIS friend say something about the book, I use to talk to HIM again, asking HIS presence, then HE came. HE once again touches my heart, and once again HIS presence lingers in my soul. As I pray, I feel HES presence, HE make me remember our days together. The time that I’ am with my family, the time that my mother hugged me tight, the moment we spent together in the church, holding hands, crying for joy, offering song to HIM. HE makes me cry while I pray, because aside from being sinful, aside from being weak, aside from forgetting HIM, HE still fined a way for me to be with HIM again. Then I asked a favor to HIM to cleanse up my heart and my soul, t renew my mind. From that moment of time I feel relief and at ease. I can’t help but cry again for joy. My tears, my saliva, my sweat come out, as I feel them falling down my knees. Were once friends but I leaved HIM and look for another, which I meet weaknesses, worry, sorrow, tragedies, and loneliness as my new friends. And now that I realize that they are not really my friends, I go back to HIM, and automatically HE accepts me,,,again.
Thanks to my classmate his friend, for with out him I might still astray. Thanks for the love that I feel for him, because I feel GOD again. Hope that my classmate allows me to love him secretly, because as long as I feel love, GOD is with me, simply because GOD is LOVE.